So here I am, in my room thinking what am I going to do with my life?
I quit my job (which was needed). But what I also craved was someone to off load too. Not a friend or a casual lover that I’m comfortable with, but a boyfriend. Someone that makes me feel warm inside. Someone to go out with, exploring London and the world. Someone I can ‘grow with’ and vice versa. This is something I have always struggled with. I’ve been always good at keeping my emotions in check. However, after being ill due to work and my shocking dating experiences, I have decided that enough is enough! There is nothing wrong with being emotional. We are human after all.
So after half listening to a friend, I put on my big girl boots and jumped back into the online dating world. I’ve never been in the environment to meet guys normally, well ones I would date. Not that I’m that picky mind you! I haven’t had much luck, but I’m not one to be self-defeated.
As I browsed for the ‘best’ site for me, I could feel my heart beating with fear. What if I meet another guy that says one thing and does the other? I’m going to have to play ‘the game’ now? (You’ll understand from my future posts what I mean). Am I actually ready for this?